Warm and comfortable here in my bed, the door opens with a chilling breeze flooding every inch of me and my room.
*sigh*
I close my eyes and prepare again for this ritual.
Sweet dreams are made of this, right?
This time, the beach. The warm, soothing beach.
Right.
Here we go...
I feel the wet, soft sand breaking underneath my feet and squishing between my toes. I look over the ocean's surface through my sunglasses from under my flamboyantly large sun-shading hat. It's so calm and relaxing. A wave rolls up the beach and wraps its fingers around my ankles. I sink into the sand as the wave pulls away. I stay put. Can waves alone bury me in sand? Another smooth wave deposits more sand over my feet. This feels so weird! My ankles are sensually bound by the sweat-soaked sand...
Wait! Ouch! I'm stuck! This hurts!
"Shhhh!"
I gently lift my feet out of the sand and see my reflection in the water as the wave spills back into the ocean. I love my red summer dress. So retro chic with the red lace.
I look to the horizon again.
What's that? Can't be a wave...that's far too big. The surface has been so calm. Oh no... It is a wave...and it's coming my way.
Run run run! I hear it fold over itself as it moans and groans toward me. It's close, it's close! Run faster, run faster!
I knew I couldn't run fast enough. It caught me - battered me down into the bed of sand, wind knocked out of me. I'm drenched; soaked in sticky, slimy, stinky sea scum. There's scum in my hair, scum on my face, scum in my mouth, scum in my...
*whop*
The towel hits my back.
"Clean yourself up. You can shower in the morning. 'night."
"FUUUUCK YOU!" I scream in my head and shriek with my eyes.
"Oh, and remember our deal."
"Goodnight," I grunt.
I'm still not very good at this. I want to escape, travel the world, but then my escape even takes me.
Sweet dreams. Ha. What are they made of?
I don't even know any more.
It's impossible to transpose...
I didn't sleep. Time for a calculated nap.
Ahhh... This beach is simply beautiful. I wish I could live here. I wish I could leave home and stay in this place forever. It's so warm...so safe...so calm...
A familiar chill runs up my spine, engulfing my body. I whip my head around to find myself surrounded by snow-covered peaks. As I shiver in my bathing suit, I assure myself, "It's okay...it's okay. I'll be fine. This will work just fine. Just stay here and I'll be fine." I walk into the lodge followed by many stares and double-takes. Luckily they have plenty of snow gear for sell. I pull out my bottomless wallet and purchase a beautiful winter coat. It's red with hint of lace. Since I'm here, I guess I should at least rent some skis and try it out.
The ski lift ride is jostling, blustery, and white-knuckled. At least I'm warmer here under the covers...in my coat. I get off the lift and slip over to my first run: Sucker Punch. They say it's an easy run if you don't think too hard about it - just use your split-second instincts. Right, don't think. Here we go.
I push off feeling the cold breeze on my rosy red cheeks. The rush of weaving in and out of trees, people, and more trees is exhilarating. I really start to pick up speed. I see a jump up ahead... Hmmm...I don't think.... Wait, exactly, don't think. Just go! I reach the bottom of the jump, swoop upward, and lift off! Flying high into the air in slow motion. I feel snow flakes tap my face.
*smack*
Ughhh, my face. Ahh...Sucker Punch...I get it now... I flip myself over, onto my back. I have sopping wet white snow all over my hair and my face, in my mouth, and in my...
*whop*
Towel again tossed at my cocooned body. All I can do is shiver and breathe and cry wrapped up in my red, lace-trimmed comforter.
"Clean yourself up. Your mother is home.
...Remember our deal. See you again tonight."
Right, our deal. I'll never forget our deal. And what a deal it is:
I lie here, breathe, and he doesn't kill me.
I clean up, breathe, and he doesn't kill me.
I keep quiet, breathe, and he doesn't kill me.
I feign innocence, breathe, and he doesn't kill me.
I lie here, breathe, and he doesn't kill me.
Sweet dreams are made of...me.
Dinner. Steak.
This is hell.
This is insane.
I'm bound, gagged, and in shackles...
How can mom not see this?
This agony has got to stop.
This nightmare ends here.
This time is the last time.
Hell is for sleazy scum like him; not for children.
If mom won't help me, I'll help myself.
I slip one of her precious steak knives into my pocket as I finish cleaning the dishes and prepare to return to my tainted bed.
I immediately tuck the knife under my pillow, inside the pillow case.
*sigh*
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| The Best Time To Fly by Muffin-and-Lemonade deviantART |
I close my eyes and prepare again for this ritual.
Sweet dreams are made of this, right?
This time, the beach. The warm, soothing beach.
Right.
Here we go...
I feel the wet, soft sand breaking underneath my feet and squishing between my toes. I look over the ocean's surface through my sunglasses from under my flamboyantly large sun-shading hat. It's so calm and relaxing. A wave rolls up the beach and wraps its fingers around my ankles. I sink into the sand as the wave pulls away. I stay put. Can waves alone bury me in sand? Another smooth wave deposits more sand over my feet. This feels so weird! My ankles are sensually bound by the sweat-soaked sand...
Wait! Ouch! I'm stuck! This hurts!
"Shhhh!"
I gently lift my feet out of the sand and see my reflection in the water as the wave spills back into the ocean. I love my red summer dress. So retro chic with the red lace.
I look to the horizon again.
What's that? Can't be a wave...that's far too big. The surface has been so calm. Oh no... It is a wave...and it's coming my way.
Run run run! I hear it fold over itself as it moans and groans toward me. It's close, it's close! Run faster, run faster!
I knew I couldn't run fast enough. It caught me - battered me down into the bed of sand, wind knocked out of me. I'm drenched; soaked in sticky, slimy, stinky sea scum. There's scum in my hair, scum on my face, scum in my mouth, scum in my...
*whop*
The towel hits my back.
"Clean yourself up. You can shower in the morning. 'night."
"FUUUUCK YOU!" I scream in my head and shriek with my eyes.
"Oh, and remember our deal."
"Goodnight," I grunt.
I'm still not very good at this. I want to escape, travel the world, but then my escape even takes me.
Sweet dreams. Ha. What are they made of?
I don't even know any more.
It's impossible to transpose...
...Anger, Rage, Titillation, Penetration, Screams, Pain, Blood...
...into serenity.
I didn't sleep. Time for a calculated nap.
Ahhh... This beach is simply beautiful. I wish I could live here. I wish I could leave home and stay in this place forever. It's so warm...so safe...so calm...
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| Red Coat Reverie I by shamoney shambles Flickr |
The ski lift ride is jostling, blustery, and white-knuckled. At least I'm warmer here under the covers...in my coat. I get off the lift and slip over to my first run: Sucker Punch. They say it's an easy run if you don't think too hard about it - just use your split-second instincts. Right, don't think. Here we go.
I push off feeling the cold breeze on my rosy red cheeks. The rush of weaving in and out of trees, people, and more trees is exhilarating. I really start to pick up speed. I see a jump up ahead... Hmmm...I don't think.... Wait, exactly, don't think. Just go! I reach the bottom of the jump, swoop upward, and lift off! Flying high into the air in slow motion. I feel snow flakes tap my face.
*smack*
Ughhh, my face. Ahh...Sucker Punch...I get it now... I flip myself over, onto my back. I have sopping wet white snow all over my hair and my face, in my mouth, and in my...
*whop*
Towel again tossed at my cocooned body. All I can do is shiver and breathe and cry wrapped up in my red, lace-trimmed comforter.
"Clean yourself up. Your mother is home.
...Remember our deal. See you again tonight."
Right, our deal. I'll never forget our deal. And what a deal it is:
I lie here, breathe, and he doesn't kill me.
I clean up, breathe, and he doesn't kill me.
I keep quiet, breathe, and he doesn't kill me.
I feign innocence, breathe, and he doesn't kill me.
I lie here, breathe, and he doesn't kill me.
Sweet dreams are made of...me.
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| 168.365 all the words in my mouth, #474 in explore ! by ashley rose Flickr |
This is hell.
This is insane.
I'm bound, gagged, and in shackles...
How can mom not see this?
This agony has got to stop.
This nightmare ends here.
This time is the last time.
Hell is for sleazy scum like him; not for children.
If mom won't help me, I'll help myself.
I slip one of her precious steak knives into my pocket as I finish cleaning the dishes and prepare to return to my tainted bed.
I immediately tuck the knife under my pillow, inside the pillow case.
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| Opening the Door by twenty_questions Flickr |
*knock*knock*
My door creaks open.
"Go away," I say, face in pillow, knife handle clenched.
"Just a kiss goodnight."
"Go away."
"Just a kiss goodnight, I said."
"Fine."
These goodnight kisses take longer and longer each night.
*click*
Darkness. I know it too well. Time for that kiss.
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| Tikka Powder by Amit Rosner cplaces.wordpress.com |
I walk out of the crowded market with my bags of red to a more open area. Awww, it's so cloudy for such a happy day! Our colors will brighten it up. All this color will make the sun want to poke his way through those clouds and see what we're doing down here. More and more locals begin to fill the area around me, each one of them holding some color. I holler to the man next to me, "When should I do it?" He looks back at me with a serene look on his face saying, "Now, my dear!" He clenches his eyes closed and releases his dust in ecstasy. Color color everywhere!
Color...Color...
Red
Red...
Red......
It's all red...?
Oh how I love red!
I'm covered! Covered in red red red! It's in my hair, on my face, in my mouth, and in my...
*boom*crash*bang*
The downpour begins. I knew the sun would want to see, but what a messy way to clear the clouds! Instantly, our pigment drenched faces turn deep, rich shades, staining each fibre it touches. The red drips from my body. It drips through my hair, down my neck and face, into my mouth, along my back, and into my...
*drip*drip*drip*
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| Dripping Wet by mlibrarianus Flickr |
He howls and frantically pulls out the knife I, only moments ago, gently placed in my neck during his blind euphoria.
Only a few more
*drip*drip*drip*'s
and sweet dreams are here to stay.
Music to my ears.
*drip*drip*drip*
Sing me to sleep...
Sing me to sleep...
I don't want to wake up...
Sweet dreams.
Inspired by:
Sucker Punch
"Asleep" by Emily Browning from Sucker Punch
"Sweet Dreams (Are Made Of This)" by Emily Browning from Sucker Punch (originally by Eurythmics)
"Hell is for Children" and "Suffer The Little Children" by Pat Benatar
"This Time" by Céline Dion
"The Dark I Know Well" from Spring Awakening
Life
Others' Lives
Those of you on Facebook, "Follow" me at http://jasonhoggan.blogspot.com/."Sweet Dreams (Are Made Of This)" by Emily Browning from Sucker Punch (originally by Eurythmics)
"Hell is for Children" and "Suffer The Little Children" by Pat Benatar
"This Time" by Céline Dion
"The Dark I Know Well" from Spring Awakening
Life
Others' Lives
